Enya’s life was like a bull in a China Shop. While she juggles with all the stress with her family and work, there comes cupid’s call and makes her fall in love with who she thinks is the perfect man God could have ever created. When Shailesh Nedungadi breaks her heart, she resolves never to fall in love again. But one heart break was not enough for her to stop herself from falling in love yet again. The stories she shares with her boss, Roshan Mandanna, over a tea break opens her heart to love again. And even though she resists it, she finds herself falling head over heels in love with Roshan.
“But honestly, I feel so much at peace with myself. I don’t have a single care in the world. I have never loved anyone like I loved Shailesh and I will not be able to love anyone again.”
“How can you say that? Maybe you haven’t met the right guy yet.”
“I don’t know, I feel empty inside. I feel nothing.”
“Now you are just being dramatic”
“No I am not. I am telling you, I feel nothing inside. Imagine this, your heart is like a bucket, you have all your emotions stored in it – your joy, your tears, your fears, your sorrows, your laughter, your love, your hatred, everything. And then one day, you take that bucket and pour out everything on top of someone. Now the bucket is empty. That is how I feel. I am devoid of emotions. I feel nothing now, not even towards Shailesh. I have no love, I bear no hatred. I feel indifferent towards everyone.”
“Are you saying you don’t like anybody at all?”
“Maybe I do, maybe I might find someone in the future who will sweep me off my feet once again. Ok, I do like someone now, but that emotional connect isn’t there. I don’t even know ..if he likes me too, will I be able to reciprocate.”
“Who is it?”
“I.. no one. I don’t know if I really like him in the first place. Maybe I am just a little attracted towards him. I really don’t feel that connect. I don’t even know if there is anything there in the first place.”
“How will you know unless you try?”
“I… try what?”
He came towards me, put his hands around my waist, pulled me closer, kissed me tenderly on the lips and whispered, “Try falling in love again!”
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
R. Nithya hails from a family of story tellers. She has had a passion for stories from a very young age and loves to live in a world of her own making. She is also passionate about cooking, eating and pets. She is the co-founder of a site for foodies called Hungwrimos.com. When she is not cooking, or eating or writing, she also works as a Freelance Marketing Consultant. She is married to an officer in the Indian Navy and currently resides in Vishakhapatnam, AP.
A version of this article first appeared in the weekly YSeeker e-magazine in 2014.